Deep inside, I have hidden my greatest dreams and aspirations. Not for fear of failure, but for fear of rejection. Prior to moving to LA, I had created a world that was safe. I was an assistant manager at a retail store, I made a decent amount of money, and I was able to live pretty comfortably. But I felt lost, trapped within myself. For as long as I could remember, I had played it safe, and I was beginning to see just how unhappy I was going to be for the rest of my life. I am not afraid of failure. Exploring new things and taking chances excite me. However, I am afraid of rejection. What will people think if they really know me? Will they laugh if they know the person that I want to be? I have never really felt special. I do consider myself talented…but I have always felt my skills were mediocre at best. The world is full of talented people. What makes me different? My family is full of creative people. Some who are better singers, better writers, better artists, better at business, and better at commanding a room. I have allowed myself to hang out in the shadows. I have allowed myself to take a backseat to those I see around me. I am twenty-four and I have lived a great life. I achieved honors in high school, went on to obtain my bachelors degree from a prestigious university, and began “making it” in the “real world.” Yet none of that compares to the life that I see in my dreams. I have taken the first step in changing my world by moving to Los Angeles; however, I have even played it safe in this move. I have cloaked my true desires under the disguise of wanting to pursue higher education. The cover story has been that I am getting my associates degree in recording arts and will then go on to get my masters in fine arts once I have residency in the state of California. Although this is true, it is really secondary to the desires that truly burn within. I want to be an icon in the worlds of entertainment, art, and literature. Every since I was younger, I have been in love with music. I love the way it makes me feel and the way that a single song can trigger an entire walk down memory lane. I want to create music that touches people and will forever change their lives the way that music has changed mine. I want to tour the world and visit new places. I want to paint, draw, and release every emotion that I harbor within. I want to write and create stories that help others to envision a world of endless possibilities. I want to leave a legacy of love and integrity. And I fully understand that none of my wants will become reality unless I am wiling to open up and share the gifts that God has given me. I am the greatest story that has yet to be told. I am a living, breathing, walking legend in the making. I am more than capable of bringing all of my dreams to fruition. I am intrinsically connected to THE GREAT I AM which means that I am all this and more.
I am Lorenz.
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