So, today makes three weeks back in LA. In some regards, it feels like I never left. I'm living back in the dorms, working back at American Eagle, and now in my second week of classes. Although I've almost seamlessly picked right back up where I left off, there are subtle reminders of my nine month absence. It's sort of strange and mildly painful to know that some of the friends I made that started the program with me back in May 2011 have either already graduated or will be graduating within the next couple of months. I know that everything happens for a reason and I also know that my time away was much needed. I'm not the same person I was when I arrived in LA the first time around. However, I feel like I'm always going through periods in my life where I've sort of stalled out. Like there are these gaps of time between major events and moves in my life where I feel like I have nothing to show. In these periods, I know that personal and emotional growth have occurred, but sometimes it's hard to keep looking around at the success of others while feeling like the accomplishments in my life are few and far between. I suppose it has just been one of those days. LA has always had a way of bringing out the best and worst feelings I hold inside.
~Lorenz
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